I have been struggling for the last week or so because I was trying to adjust to my new work schedule while trying to keep this going. It has been really hard for me to write anything because I felt that I was just complaining about my life and the misfortune of having bipolar disorder. And to an extent that is exactly what I was doing but then in a FLASH it all came back to me. That is what I was doing wrong. I was making this blog about me when that was not my original intention at all. I wanted to start this blog and eventually create a charitable organization around it because of one thing and one thing only. I wanted to help other people by sharing the things that I have learned over the years to manage my health conditions. I have learned so much over the years that has helped me tremendously (when I remember to keep up with them and don’t get lost in the mundane).
Starting this week I am going to start over again. I have this new blog site so why not make everything fresh. I’ll be posting about the topics that I love and the things that have helped me the most throughout the years. I’ve studied so many different ways of helping myself and I have wanted to share the one’s that I feel are most important for a very long time now. I had started writing a book about it a few years ago but, as I kept writing, I realized that a book was not really the right format for the topics that I loved and the target audience was not right either. It came to me that I was really writing this for other people dealing with mental health issues right before I left to go to the treatment center, although these topics can really help everyone. Once I realized who I was really writing this for, the ideas started flowing again, just like with this blog.
I am very excited now that I figured out why I was struggling for the past couple of weeks. I’ve been glad to have a place to share my story but my story was not the most important thing that I had to share with others. I will still share about what I am dealing with, as it seems pertinent to the conversation, but now I don’t feel the need to keep going on and on about my personal struggles, which is far more comfortable to me. I won’t be able to post everyday because of my current schedule but, with what I am doing now, it isn’t necessary to do that anyway.
I hope you will join me and I will leave you with this (because I think the Dalai Lama is an amazing man):